Monday, May 2, 2011

May 2, 2011

What a day!  I had to talk myself down from about 4 anxiety attacks but I am better now. I refused to take medicine.  I just kept repeating over and over, this is just anxiety, this is just anxiety.  I think the trick is going to be convincing myself of it until I believe it.  The bottom line is I really was able to talk myself down, and that is pretty historic.

Today was a good day at work but I have such an urge to do something new, perhaps even move. Mikey and I have talked a lot lately about moving.  With my mom gone I feel free to do what I like and to move somewhere other than where I have ALWAYS lived is extremely appealing.  Plus it also helps that teaching is going down the tubes, at least in Florida.  My pension had me staying, but now, I just don't know.  I have butterflies, but in a good kind of way......could it be?

Sunday, May 1, 2011

May 1, 2011

I'm glad it is May!  One month closer to the end of school.  June 10th will be a joyous day!

Yesterday was fun at the wedding and then chilling out after buying my niece's birthday present.

Today makes one month of being vegetarian.  I am so proud and feel so good.  I have a feeling I might have been heading in this direction truly for quite a while.  Now I need to focus on lowering my fat intake and curbing the cheese which I have no doubt substituted for meat.  But still, even with the cheese, I feel SOOO much better than with meat. It is also crazy to think how much meat I would have eaten over the course of a month.

Today I have no real plans other than going to my niece's birthday party at 11:30.  I have no school work to grade so I get to relax.  I am in such a good place right now!!!  BTW, 16 days without medicine.  My horrors are all but gone.  I felt nothing yesterday.  Still having very vivid dreams, but they have been cool dreams and I have read that that is common.  Cheers!    =)